What am I, if I have no shadow.

What is the mind without the heart?
I think my head's gonna explode. Don't know whether I just drank too much last night, whether... something didn't agree with me... or whether I just feel so fucking helpless. Last night I got hopes built up and thought, at least someone finds me attractive, but I feel so humiliated that everyone I kiss or do stuff with gets really embarrased about it, like it's a shameful thing. It's fucking humiliating you know?

Do we really live in a world where your reputation means more to you than your heart?
Being a slut has it's downsides.
I actually nearly died a bit inside, you know when your heart sinks. Humiliation.
But there's no point feeling sorry for myself,I don't even know why I'm pissed off.
I smell like arse, fags and cointreau, I'm so attractive, it's disgusting.
Yeah anyway, back to my main point.
Do we really live in a world where you do stuff, because you don't want people's opinions to change of you?
If you do stuff, the people who judge you are the ones who aren't healthy for you. I just wish some people would grow up. You don't have to be loved by everyone, just be yourself... people will respect you so much more.